You Tell Me That It’s Evolution…

24 Jul

I am starting to discover how my attitude toward “getting fit” is evolving as my journey progresses.  I am still slightly hung up on the scale, but I am noticing that it is having a lesser effect on my moods and outlook lately.  I am looking at food and instead of thinking “that is not going to be enough”, I am thinking “that is going to be way too much”.  I am exercising for the joy of the pain and discomfort mixed with the pride of wanting to actually do it and following through.

I can’t tell you how happy I feel dripping with sweat after working out.  It is such a powerful feeling.  I might as well look like I have a rock hard body, because I am sure I strut around like I do afterward.  On the same token, I might as well need a fork lift to get me out of my house when I skip workouts because I feel like I weigh 600lbs.

The point is, and I promise there is one, is that my body is starting to dictate my drive, my moods, my relationship with food…not my mind…or maybe my mind is listening to my body.  I don’t really know the logistics of it, but something is changing…for the better.

I am feeling more fit, more healthy and more able than ever and I want to feel even better.  I think of all that I can do now that I could not 2 months ago and my mind day dreams about the possibilities for my life a year from now.  I am telling you it is going to be awesome!

I have always believed in mind over matter, but like a lot of us I don’t always practice what I preach/believe.  I usually find the bright side, the silver lining, the glass half full if you will.  If it is really stressful, I have my moment and I put my big girl undies on and I face the problem with smile and an “It is what it is.”

My weight has always been a dark spot in my attempts at a sunny disposition.  I have always had a bit of world against me woe is me attitude about my weight.  I am not going to lie and say that I do not believe that I have some metabolic/hormonal issues that make weight loss extra challenging, because me and my endocrinologist believe I do.  However, when I am not doing everything in my power to be healthy and lose weight, blaming my body is just a convenient excuse to not hold myself accountable.

So I have to work a little harder, a little longer, and put forth more effort.  It is what it is.  However, I control how I deal and react to that reality.  Do I just sit around and eat myself into an early grave and rob my daughter of a healthy able bodied mother?  Or, do I get off my butt, eat less, eat healthy, and make the best of what I have got?

I am choosing the second option each and everyday that I abstain from crap foods and get my workout on.  I get stronger physically, mentally, and emotionally with each passing day…good days and bad days.  I am listening to my body as a guide, not the inner fat girl who wants the easy way out.  I am willing to put in the work because I what this…badly!  It is amazingly simple to be something seemingly so complex.

One of my ongoing goals is to not obsess about the scale as much.  If I know my body is changing for the better, I am going to hang in there and give the weight time to catch up.  I have faith that it will.

I would love to hear from you if you have completed a journey or are in the midst of one now.  How is your outlook for the future and day to day?  How is your relationship with food and exercise changing, or is it?

Stay strong,

7 Responses to “You Tell Me That It’s Evolution…”

  1. The Fashion Foot July 24, 2012 at 11:27 pm #

    This article is inspiring. I completely agree with you about the feeling you get after you complete a hard core workout. It is like a happy high that lasts all day! I recently came across a piece of jewelry that helps keep track of goals you have. Plus, it is very cute! I wrote an article on it. If you are interested, check it out:

    • chirpybleu July 24, 2012 at 11:40 pm #

      Thanks so much for the comment and kind words! I love that bracelet! Such a cute item with extra meaning! Again thanks for checking my blog out!

  2. Nichole Winberry July 25, 2012 at 4:56 am #

    You can do it Jen! Keep up the hard work. It will pay off. Also a book recommendation for you that really helped me keep my mind off the scales. Made to crave by lysa terkeurst. It’s a great read and very inspiring. Let me know what you think about it if you get a chane to read it.

    Nichole WINBERRY

    • chirpybleu July 25, 2012 at 8:23 am #

      Thanks for the encouragement and book recommendation Nicole!!! It is on my Kindle wishlist!!!

  3. Jane Cafasso July 25, 2012 at 10:13 pm #

    Last Friday I reached my goal weight. I have lost a total of 127 lbs. People now call me skinny girl, my boss remarked that I look so slender. Funny thing is that I still look at myself as if I am looking into a circus mirror(not the tall skinny one but the short chubby one) I guess it will take some time to see myself in a new light. I have to keep pinching myself to make sure it is real, although trying on size 8 pants this afternoon was proof positive that I have arrived. That being said, I am terrified that I will gain it back. The difference this time is I have developed a great love of exercise & the gym is the happiest part of my day. So take heart & persevere. The journey to being fit is a wonderful ride!

    • chirpybleu July 26, 2012 at 7:47 am #

      Thanks so much for sharing your journey! That is so awesome to arrive at your goal weight! Congrats to you! Thank you for the words of encouragement. I am not even close to my goal weight yet, but I am still terrified of regain. I totally understand your fears. You are right however, having a new love of working out is sure to keep you focused and allow you to maintain. Best,

  4. dantecarterfitness July 28, 2012 at 3:01 pm #

    Reblogged this on dantecarterfitness and commented:
    Nothing is too hard once you put your mind and full effort into it. This blog post, if you’re trying to lose weight will help keep you going in reaching that goal. Taking your mind off the scale and instead focusing on how clothes fit and how you feel is more important than the scale. KEEP UP THE HARD WORK!

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